Well if this isn't just the best, I don't know what is. I always find your writing so fresh and your stories so original, but so completely relate to being entirely sick of my own.
I did it. A full tsunami wave with my latest newsletter. I sat with the discomfort of it (still am) but not undoing it out of fear or people pleasing. Just letting it be. Each day I feel less uncomfortable and realize that I am okay. Also, I got some very nice positive feedback on my newsletter and it affirmed my decision to make waves.
Me too, only my version would be "As long as you can manage the terror of doing so." I figure that when you or I enact a new story, the forces that led to us creating our current story comes at us full force, which is 1)instructive and 2) fright-full.
This is me: take one big step forward then inside I want to scream and run away and hide. I'm really trying to stay in that big step forward while acknowledging the fear of being seen and taking up space.
Well if this isn't just the best, I don't know what is. I always find your writing so fresh and your stories so original, but so completely relate to being entirely sick of my own.
Ha! Ditto. Ditto. Ditto.
My self-mythology would probably be that I have to keep myself small and not make waves. I wonder if I can challenge that?
Ooooh, I want you to challenge that! What would it be like to move like a tsunami? A loving, gorgeous, gargantuan tsunami? Please report back.
I did it. A full tsunami wave with my latest newsletter. I sat with the discomfort of it (still am) but not undoing it out of fear or people pleasing. Just letting it be. Each day I feel less uncomfortable and realize that I am okay. Also, I got some very nice positive feedback on my newsletter and it affirmed my decision to make waves.
You did it! You sat with the discomfort (still are.) Just letting it be. What a wild witness.
Me too, only my version would be "As long as you can manage the terror of doing so." I figure that when you or I enact a new story, the forces that led to us creating our current story comes at us full force, which is 1)instructive and 2) fright-full.
This is me: take one big step forward then inside I want to scream and run away and hide. I'm really trying to stay in that big step forward while acknowledging the fear of being seen and taking up space.
I love this, Erin, and I really relate. Thanks for this read today.
Maybe this is the curse of every word nerd? So glad to be seen.